On March 6th, 2017 I got a call from my sister in law as I was driving home from work that my sweet uncle had suddenly passed away! It was such a shock for me and my family! It took me what felt like forever to get home and be with my family… I couldn’t stop crying! I ended up having a panic attack as I was driving! Coming home seeing my mom, aunts and grandma just tore me apart even more. I had lost an uncle but my mom and aunts lost their one and only brother and my grandma lost her son! She was besides herself, it honestly tore my heart into pieces!
If there’s one thing that I learned from this is that to live life how we want too because you just never know what tomorrow will bring. He is the first person who I have loved that passed away. My dad’s dad passed away on my birthday when I was 4 or 5 years old so I didn’t really understand back then what death really was or how to deal with it or tunderstanding the fact that I would never seem him again…
As I’m driving to work I just can’t help but remember him and what happened, I instantly start to cry every single morning… I feel like I’m living in a nightmare and all I want to do is wake up and go hug him, but I can’t.
I miss you so much qeri Jan!